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Thursday, September 07, 2006
- THE TRIPLE S
It is a break...
Not a very big break,
but it certainly is a classic fun break!
Wanna guess where the place is?
 somewhere beautiful.... we won't go any sleazy place now, will we?
perfect, almost...^^ I mean, except that no one else takes the picture but us... look, I almost didn't make it in the SQUARE.^^
SHAI........................................................STAR.............................................SHOB
Posted at 04:14 am by shy_la
Thursday, August 31, 2006
OOOOOH, MUSSSHY!
Like a pie in the sky but it's right at hand!
finally, I AM HOME.
Back to my heart. Back to my peaceful moments and to my strenght.
That's SACHI, my niece in the photo.
Her smile represents my GIFT of SUCCESS - the journey to freedom.
Now I am truly anew, with great gifts I carry from all the beautiful experiences I have earned from work and experiences back over the years.
This is it..... It's time to shine my brightest for the nth time
and continue the journey with a carefree feeling!
Here I come!
wooohoooo!!!! Praises to heavens!
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Posted at 08:22 am by shy_la
Sunday, November 06, 2005
L.O.N.E.L.Y
I am never less alone, than when I am alone
- James Howell
It's Monday and I'm trying to gather myself up together after breaking down yesterday.
After church while I was eating breakfast, cousin-like Tony (whom I call Mickey) invited me for a talk.
It wasn't really like a talk, he told me off. Not in a severe way, but his words cut me through.
I cried.
I cried because I was misunderstood.
I cried because I felt more alone than I had ever been.
I cried because I was deeply hurt.
The talk went on untill afternoon.
My brother Jimi brought in a box of Purdy's chocolate which he described the finest one of Canada. Whatever, I thought.
He probably knew I wouldn't eat later.
He was right, I skipped dinner.
I told my brother how I felt about him not asking me how I am in a day.
I also told him that I did'nt seem to have much real friends now.
And, that sometimes, I felt homeless living with him.
That I was practically "lonely". I hate that stupid word.
That my life has just been about going to work and to my bedroom.
I guess he understood, but I wasn't sure if he realized why I told him that.
The entire crying night went so uncomfortable and disheartening.
I was more restless because I ran out of baby powder.
I went to bed anyway and slept my cry off.
I thought of mom. But I never let her know when I'm sad.
I thought of friends back in hometown, having them hear me out (out of the blue) wasn't even very cushy.
I thought of someone whom I could run my thoughts and feelings to,
or just have a chat about something funny...
I realized I got no one but myself. 
Jacq probably thought I was screwing our plan for Monday appointment. She gave me a sort of disapproving voice when we hung up the phone early that night.
I thought of Honey... but everything seemed just about her or momeng all the time.
I thought of Bang bang, I'd rather see her in person, I could expect for a hug.
I thought of Lowena, but I hesitated.
Then I was dumbfounded. HAVE I STILL GOT I FRIENDS?
My dog, Didi went inside my room and gave me a tender look.
He's feels for me when I'm especially down.
He sees me talk to myself and he probably feels that I go home alone.
Anyway, my thoughts wandered all night.
I dreaded the lonely Christmas, and the Valentine, and my birthday.
I thought of running away.
I thought of getting married.
I also thought of crying in my dream that night.
I was so sad, that all I wanted was ... to be ALONE. be more alone.
Posted at 04:21 pm by shy_la
Thursday, November 03, 2005
guess what?
We're back to old age, that's what.
Jack and I are having conversation on paper and pen .
That's right.
No more YM , as implemented by the office starting today.
Whatever.
That's not gonna stop us from having important talk,
and without breaking any company rules, we're kind of having fun doing it this way. ^^
And guess what?
Jacq thought of pasting the letters on her scrap book. ^^
I thought of photocopying them for my journal... guess why?
because I love every emotional statement we put there,
and I want to remember those words.
Posted at 05:30 am by shy_la
Wednesday, November 02, 2005
KIND OF SAD
A day like this, is a kind of day when all I want to do is EAT. Or WALLOW.Either way, I want to feel this feeling of sadness off.
Food, yeah. Loll on bed, yeah.
I just feel like bumming around.
Or hide inside a big cabinet (like I used to do back in my hometown).
Or just skulk under my table here.
Well it's kind of sad, because I'm getting so jaded around the office. BIG TIME.
People come and go, there are no permanent faces and there's not even a time for small chat.
And the saddest part is the change of schedule. Eloisa, my "gay-sister" whom I call Bang Bang, started the morning shift just today. And not having her around makes me feel as though woozy. I'm not used to not hearing her voice, and I can't imagine yet a walk home without her, or a prayer before sleep and the morning walk to RCBC without her. It's soooooo unbelievable. It's unimaginable. And I miss her. I know I'll still see her in the morning, but she's stationed a bit far, I bet I can't even hear her.
I don't like the idea of mornings and evenings which are not going to be the same anymore. NO.
 JuSt LOoK at her! and US!
(sigh) I don't know what to say.
I am not in the mood for anything, I am dizzy and I am sad.
I miss bang bang and our laughters.
I want friends... faithful and nice ones.
I need a long vacation.
And I want to go out on a date or something.
I haven't watched movies for ages since my brother decided to see films on a dvd player.
I never had real fun I suppose.
I never had invitations as far as I can remember.
Like, I was never asked (by a guy) on date.
It's sickening.
I want to stop these calls right now and do something stupid and crazy onwards!
I want to be someone not me. I guess. I mean, for now.
whatever.
This day is truly sad.
And I can't help but dig the dark sides of things. 
Posted at 07:08 am by shy_la
Thursday, October 27, 2005
surprises are the best
Today, I came to work and got a BIG surprise!
My studen'ts mom sent me a Korean national costume, called Hanbok.
It's such a beautiful thing.
I was so grateful.
I couldn't stop smiling and I treated all my evening students especially nice tonight.
Two of my colleagues got Hanboks too. Jack got so delighted that we imediately fit them on and took pictures.
Oh thank you, thank you!
Thank God for surprises!
Posted at 05:29 am by shy_la
Monday, October 24, 2005
reality five
5 things I can do:
1. Be a best friend
2. Make over (a person, house, clothes, etc.)
3. Draw
4. Sing?
5. Stay home for three straight months or even longer
5 things I cannot do:
1. Spend a day without baby powder.
2. Add, subtract, multiply and divide without electronic device
3. Cuss. That's the scariest, really
4. Take a decent picture. I wish there were no such word as "photogenic".
5. Drive a car
5 things that attract me to the opposite sex:
1. Physique is undeniable. I see one who works out and who needs one
2. Intelligence means less talk and more action
3. Compassion is really charming
4. Unique is equal to independence. One who doesn't buy the trend
but who believes in the power of SELF and what it can do
5. REAL DEAL. Who ever wants a fakey?
5 turn offs:
1. false teeth
2. show off
3. weakling
4. dead nails or awfully long nails (eeeew!)
5. guy carrying his girlfriend's handbag, I mean, I would
understand if it's a huge and heavy bag, but a handbag????
5 favorite qualities in a friend:
1. listener
2. Candid. One who can tell everything, even the difficult truths
3. one who loves friendship
4. positive
5. giver
5 things I say most often:
1. Thank you - It's by far my most favorite, and I just never get tired of it
2. That's Wonderful - I love the feeling of excitement and being
appreciated, I want others to feel the same, I find "wonderful" the fit
word
3. Really?... - that's when I'm not actually listening, or I got nothing else
to say
4. Okay – I say it like multiple times a day, not even my favorite but it's
my everyday spiel or something
5. uh, NO – a joke which most often means YES, to me
5 things I will do before I die:
1. something remarkable (it's d biggest goal, and it's top secret)
2. Write a book
3. Travel to Tibet and see the fountain- of-youth-people (if they were
real)
4. Make plentiful of paintings and other art work
5. M.L. (heehee^^)
5 celebrity crushes:
1. Ryan Philippe (He has got the most beautiful face and body. I love how
he moves and speaks - Cruel intentions)
2. Justin Timberlake - what rocks but his voice!
3. Josh Harnett (in white tank and silver plate necklace - Pearl Harbor)
4. Drew Barrymore – I¡¯ll bet I could keep crushing on her until she
grows gray hair and awful wrinkles
5. -reserved-
5 saddest things:
1. mean words
2. mean people
3. zits - they're the cruelest
3. broken hearts
4. child scolded in public
5. poverty
5 happiest things:
1. when mum's happy
2. a day with lots and lotsa food
3. new set of clothes and shoes
4. real friends
5. compliments
5 most difficult things:
1. when loved ones get sick
2. trying to get sleep after a creepy talk or scary movie.
3. frying fish
4. goodbyes
5. crushing achingly on someone who doesn't even know you exist
5 coolest:
1. the classical pianists (bethoven, Mozzart, all of 'em)
2. the yogis
3. a millionaire in a dollar store
4. being very beautiful and smart at the same time
5. me
5 things that suck:
1. skanky smell (you know what)
2. skanky food (won't mention what)
3. skanky taste (I mean in fashion, movies, music, etc.)
4. skanky noise like snores (you should hear my brother's...gawd)
5. embarassing accidents (like tripping over in a large crowd or even
worse)
5 significant persons:
1. The Marian Lady
2. Mum
3. Deepak Chopra
4. Neale Donald Walchs
5. Oprah Winfrey
5 things I'm grateful for:
1. my God
2. my SELF
3. the music
4. the laughter
5. the prayer
5 things I wish for:
1. I wish for mum and dad's health
2. I wish I could do all the things I wanted
3. I wish the man of my dreams would arrive NOW
4. I wish for a successful orthodentic
5. I wish that all the "happy" wishes in the world would come true
5 things I believe in:
1. Spirit
2. Love
3. Ever after
4. kind words
5. miracles
5 questions I want to ask God:
1. God, could You show us You in an incontrovertible way? Or have you?
like, do you have a body or a face, literally like ours?
2. And God, what were you thinking when you created the volcanoes and
the dangerous creatures like sharks in the sea?
3. Is it your will that some people just get lucky and others don't?
4. Why am I single forever, do you WILL it too? Even if I think I want
things different for me?
5. Am I ever going to get a boyfriend? Yes? No? Would you make it a
YES, puhleez...?
Posted at 02:48 pm by shy_la
Thursday, August 18, 2005
__________________________________yourMessage___________________________________
 on MADONNA'SAug 18, 05
simply gorgeous: "madonna fell off her horse during her birthday celebration. :(
shyla: "ouch!"
on MY FAVORITE THINGS /Aug 15, 05
Stardust Ria: "and i love you too.
That's why I made something for you.
I have a surprise for you. I'll show em to u tom.Byeee ....
Enjoy your day. food trip tyo minsan hehe!
shyla: "my sweet star! Thanks.^^
pengeng skin tips.. yeah, let's eat! ...
LOOK! moojy's here!"
on MY ADVICES /Aug 12, 05
shenmue: "y did i have goosebumps reading this? hehehehe"
shyla: "uh...t'was probably my advice on drugs?
heeheee, peace dev! muaaah!
| simply gorgeous - on ADVICES |
Aug 10, 05 |
sure chub! you always are cute! |
cutie cute cute. like me.:)
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| eloise - on WHAT DO I THINK about MEN |
Jul 28, 05 |
lucky you bang bang bugle-ow!
....Kisses kisses! |
luckily i wasnt that exposed to those kinds of creatures bang..or should I say i just dont give a damn..
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____________________bigthanks____________________
Posted at 04:35 pm by shy_la
Sunday, August 14, 2005
MUM
to my ever beloved mother
I love you with all my heart. I love you more than my own heart.
I love you with all my might. I love you more and more each day.
I love the life with you. I love you from my deepest being.
I can talk with you all day long. I love you too much.
I feel joy when I think of you. I love your everything. I love you your tummy most.
I love you your words. I love your laugh. I love the music in your mouth. I love your sweet scent.
I love you with my whole being. I love every thought of you. I love every moment with you.
I love what you love. I love what you think.
I love how your clothes feel. I love all your blessings.
I love your patience. I love your kindness. I love your compassion. And most of all your wisdom.
I love your care. I love your home. I love your dreams. I love you so much more.
I love your feelings. I love your world.
I love your habits. I love everything you do. I love you from my highest thoughts.
I love your embrace. I love your calls. I love your sweet kisses.
I love your food. I love your family. I love you.
My heart beats for your love and I breathe for your name.
I love you from beginning and I love you eternally.
I love you mother, with all my heart.
-Your baby darling ^^ 
Posted at 07:09 am by shy_la
Friday, August 12, 2005
-----my ten most favorite things in the world----
10. journaLs and colorful s t a t i Onery
9. FrAngrances
8. b Oo k s
7. lots of s h O e s
6. mOist u r i z e r s
5. c l O t h e s
4. f o O d
3. f l O w E r s
2. d a r k chocOlates
1. B a B Y pOwDers
iloveme.ilovemom.ilovedad.iloveYou.ilovetheworld.ilovelife.iloveTheChildren.iloveEveryone.
ilovetheSky.ilovetheSun.ilovetheRainbow.ilovetheRain.iloveFarmsights.iloveLaughters.
iloveDogs.ilovebutterflies.iloveDinnerOutside.ilovepillowfightsAndslumberparties.iloveSleeping.
iloveAllofArts.iloveCOLORS.ilovecandles.iloveFragrances.iloveMeditations.ilovePianomusic.
ilovebubblebaths.ilovecrystals.iloveLOVE.iloveBreathing.iloveFreshAir.iloveLotsofLove.
iloveJournals.ilovewriting.ilovemakingGratitudes.iloveShopping.ilovemakingovers.iloveDesigning
iloveEverything.AndiThankGODwithallMyheartforHisLOVE.
Posted at 07:29 am by shy_la
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